The River View Journey

This is one of the most difficult seasons of my life. Now, in terms of perspective I am not that old. But, it is often difficult to remind myself that there, more than likely, are many years of living left for me. I think I have said before that my life perspective rests on how by the presence of the Spirit, I am constantly being changed. Butterflies and kalaidescopes are images that reflect my world and self-view. And, these images keep returning to my soul. I had gotten to a place in my twenties where I thought I knew everything there was to know about myself. I had done so much self investigation work and I didn't think there was anything else to discover. My work then, turned to living into what I knew. But, as I aged into my mid-thirties, I started to scrape up against parts of my life that didn't feel like they were working. It was almost like I was trying to force myself to fit someplace I didn't actually belong.  Next came eight years of moments of tryin...

I realize that blogging has shifted to the back burner. My work schedule is based on the academic school year. The last many months have been busier than I can describe. I am on the go most of days from 7:30am to after 5pm. I substitute in the local school and then I do homebound instruction for a high school student. Weekends are filled with errands, kids functions, and house work. My journey right now doesn't allow for the type of reflection that produces blog posts. And the lack of posts does let readers, if there is anyone actually reading my thoughts, to engage with me.  But, now June has arrived. School is out. The activities of my children are slowing down. While we have some plans as a family and I will work a little in July, life is allowing for some rest. Recently I am reminded how lonely I feel. During winter of 2020, I had a realization that this season would be one in which I would be on my own. There are moments when I am glad for time alone. I need space in order to ...