The River View Journey

The last few weeks have been full. What the days have been full of are actions and conversations that solidify my willingness to lIve into something new. Right now the only thing I am sure of is that this something new will allow me to live authentically. Papers have been signed for divorce. Letters written requesting a change to the denomination where I am clergy. I am so grateful that doors are opening so that I can live as my queer self. Change is hard. These changes are scary for me. There is so much unknown.  But, I have so many dreams for what is to come. I will be working in a secular vocation as a substitute teacher. But, I will also be building new connections for my spiritual community. There will be other clergy (I will soon be meeting). But, I am also building a community locally. We will be creating a worshiping community. I will also be working as a spiritual director. (That is someone who meets regularly with people who want to learn to listen to the move...

Not gonna lie...I am exhausted. I could give you a laundry list of "stuff" that has worn me out. Some of the stuff has been brought on by my own hands. Some of it has been thrust upon me by others. Approximately 10 years ago, I knew my call to ministry was shifting. I just didn't know what it was supposed to or going to look like. Eleven or twelve years ago I knew there were parts of myself I just didn't understand. But, there was so much I was entrenched in that made it nearly impossible for me to make sense of my life ambiguities. Three years ago my life made a drastic change overnight. So, much has transpired. So much has left me angry and tramatized. I am greatful to am amazing team of care professionals in my life who handle counseling, group therapy, mental health medications, and spiritual direction.  I wish I was further along the journey, than I am. There are several changes that will be happening and I hope those occur sooner rather than later. B...